FORGOTTEN LOVE  – Chapter 4 (The Last one! )

Here’s the last and the final chapter…

Love can be confusing. I wish it was that simple to know what one’s heart is really set at. Some believe in heart playing the role, Some believe that its just the trick of your mind. So is all this just an illusion? An illusion of being in love with someone when you are just looking for comfort, wanting your heart to be at peace. Wait.  That is what being in love feels like or I am just being illusive again. Confused? She was also confused.

It was dawn and she was sitting near the window looking at the sky trying to find the answers to her confusion. Her eyes were not at rest and so was her brain. Edward was the love of her life. She had always imagined what it would be like to know that he loves her too. She would dream of being in his arms and loving him and growing old with him. After all these years, she still thought if he came back to her, she would immediately throw herself in his arms and live the life she had dreams about. Then why was it taking her so long to make that decision that her heart always craved for?

In our imagination we can make our world a fairyland where everything is so easy, every decision is like a piece of cake, every life that touches us is magical but in reality when one has to conclude life’s most important questions it takes everything you have within. This is no more a story telling. This is about every person. This is about you and me. This is about all the people that encircle your life. Do you think after so much of life experiences it would be easy to decide whom you would want to spend your entire life with? No, its not easy. But sometimes or for some people, they just know. Yes, there are such people. They do exists, among us. Sarah also knew some of those people. She wondered how did they know, how it was so easy for them to decide, why it had to be so hard for her? She did not have those answers. People belonging to this side cannot understand this, they have to decide on their own. They have to dig deeper inside their heart to get those answers and she did the same.

“Soulmates?” she thought. “Are they for real? How could there be just one person to whom our soul would connect to? That just sounds impossible. We meet so many people in our lifetime, with some we connect, with some we don’t. We keep those people in the inner circle of our life. With some we are comfortable to share our everyday life’s experience, with some we share our office stories, with some our deep dive fears, with some we just like to spend time. There cannot be just one person with whom we can connect at all the levels in all the areas. Our lives have vast emotions, how can we expect one person to totally understand us in all those emotions? Edward was the one with whom I had that connect at that time. He was there, then but actually he wasn’t there, even at that time. He wasn’t there for me. I always felt this huge pull towards him. I thought it was love. I thought he is the one I wanted throughout my life. He was the one for me. But is that for real? Is he my Soulmate?”

“He could be my soulmate for that time of my life. My soulmate to keep me away from some thing more horrendous. To protect me from some other emotion that might have broken me for life. I felt like that for him at that time for some reason. May be, I was emotionally so weak to sustain this world on my own. So he was there,  not mine but there, to get me ready for the world. To be strong enough to withstand any kind of heart break. To move around independently without being dependent upon a certain life. May be my feelings for him were so strong and I was not ready to let go, so that I would not choose someone who was not for mine to be. To have this life’s journey to reach to my destination.”

“Life has guided me here to this one person who has been there for me from the time I met him. He never thought of going away from me. He was with me in all that was good and bad in my life. And then life gave me a final blow on the face by throwing my past back at me. It seems to be cruel. Why did this have to happen? ” She just sat there thinking why would life take this turn and make it so hard for her.

“Yes” she almost shouted. “This had to happen. This was ought to happen. If this was not a part of life’s plan then I would never have known about my doubts about Edward. I never thought that I would have doubts about him. These questions are right. These questions are for real. My feelings for him were real but in my past and now they are not so much feelings than memories. Memories of being in love with someone. If it wasn’t true then it would not have been so difficult to imagine my life with him. It’s getting more and more difficult to think of my life with him.  I don’t think that he is my soulmate for the present. I don’t.”

Right then, she had her answer. She had been sitting here for hours going through her life and trying to get an answer for her questions. And she now knew she should be with someone who stood by her when her past came rushing back leaving her in confusion, who was there at that time when she needed someone the most. She knew who was her soulmate and whom she should be with. Sarah smiled and picked up her phone to call the one for her…

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This is life for you! Never be disheartened when it does not go the way you thought it would because there is a reason for it. A reason for you to learn something more important, to experience something more beautiful, to meet someone more worthy of you… Enjoy life because this is it!

Love you all..

Author : S

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FORGOTTEN LOVE #CHAPTER 3

Hello there.. This is the third chapter in the series “Forgotten Love”. I have been working on this love series for a very long time now.. To know what happened earlier here, please click these links Chapter-1 and  Chapter-2 . Hope you enjoy the ifs and buts of Sarah and Edward.

Some people love to Live, but some live to Love… Are you one of those?

Noises coming from the lobby broke her concentration. She was indulged in the old yellow pages of her all time favorite Gone with the wind when she heard the paramedics. It took her only a second to get up from the chair and briskly walk outside. Sarah was standing in between the stretchers being dragged around the hallway, shrieking cries of people, families and friends nervous and asking questions in anxious voices. She stood there still, holding her book tightly towards her chest. It is not the first time when there had been a situation like this here but today was different for Sarah. Her life was taking bit of a serious turn today. Philip had asked her out and her mind was too busy since last night thinking about all the ifs and buts about him, if it is a good idea, is he the right guy for her. Tide of related and unrelated questions had swamped her world today. He is taking her out tonight on their first official date. They have now known each other for five years now and technically they were together but nothing was ever made official from either ends. After a lot of thought, she had finally decided to move on from her past and go on with her life. But she was restless and had been feeling jittery since morning and she knew it isn’t about Philip.

She kept her calm as she always do and checked about the situation. There had been a car collision that involved a women in her late 30’s and a family of four, a mother, a father and two boys. Nobody in the family were seriously injured, but the women was hurt severely and was in a critical condition. They were taking her to the emergency room for further treatment.

After checking again if she is required there, Sarah walked towards the changing room. She was off duty now and was about to leave but something inside her told that she is needed here. She started feeling uncomfortable and somehow her steps started moving towards the direction of operation theater where the women from the car clash was being operated. She stood near the big glass window and wondered if her family was informed, if she would be fine. Lost in her own thoughts, she was looking at the surgeons and her phone rang. It was Philip’s call. She answered. He was waiting outside for her. Keeping the phone back into her pocket, she took one last look at that patient and walked away.

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They were sitting in the Patio facing the sea and breeze was playing with Sarah’s hair throwing them all over her face. She was trying to tuck them behind her ears. Philip took her hand in his and started speaking. “I love you Sarah. I have liked you since the day I drove you into this city. The life in your eyes brightens my day and I would want to wake up everyday looking into these eyes.” he poured his heart out. Sarah didn’t react, she was frozen with the explosion of emotions and surprise. She just smiled at him, looked deeply into his eyes. Her eyes started flooding with tears, she looked away at the vast horizon.

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Her shift starts at seven in the morning, but she reached around half an hour early. She couldn’t sleep properly last night due to the unfolding of Philip’s emotions. She entered the hospital but her footsteps slowed down after seeing a familiar face in the lobby. Her feet kept on dragging. Edward was right in front of her, blocking her away. He looked very tired and a little smile flashed in his lips seeing her. “Hi Sarah, How are you?” he asked in a very tired voice. An entire night of turmoil was echoing in his voice. “I am good. You look so worn out. What happened? Is everything alright?” And then Edward told him about the accident. His wife was driving to San Francisco to meet her cousin and she lost control of her car which collided with another vehicle coming from the other direction. She was bought here last night and has undergone a surgery. She is under observation now. As he was explaining Sarah about the accident, she felt a knot in her stomach. “So it was Jane. That was her, the last night patient. Oh my God.”, she thought. Suzie, Edward’s daughter was sitting in the corner with her Grandma. She was tightly holding her Grandma who was assuring her that Mom will be alright. Sarah went through so many emotions in less than ten minutes, from being in confusion with Philips’ proposal, to getting shocked to see Edward there and feeling so heart broken for him and Suzie. It took her a while to take in all this information. She pulled herself together knowing that her friend needs her the most right now. They had not spoken to each other for past five years but they were no strangers to each other. They were childhood friends. She bought him some coffee and then went on to check about Jane’s condition.

After all the treatment and constant care from her family, Jane still didn’t show any sign of improvement and her health degraded. Sarah took care of Jane like her own. She was there by her bed all the time. She took care of Suzie and Edward. But after a week of struggle and pain, Jane succumbed to her injuries leaving everyone devastated.

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Suzie became very close to Sarah. She was with her most of the time. Having a friend near him at this time helped Edward to cope up with his situation. They started spending a lot of time together. Days went by and it was soon time for them to go back. Sarah was trembling from within. She didn’t wanted this phase to end. She felt bad for thinking this way. It was the time of grief for her friend and she should be there just for supporting him without any of her past feelings crawling in.

They were all in her living room for the final goodbyes. Suzie was sitting close to Sarah holding her tightly, not ready to let go. Edward was talking to her mother outside in the Patio and he looked very serious as if he is trying to convince her for something. Philip was making coffee for everyone and he could hear Sarah trying to talk to Suzie that she will come and visit her all the time. In the meantime, there seem to be an argument raging outside and Edward stormed inside the living room leaving his mother behind. He came and sat opposite to Sarah and looked deep into her eyes. She felt uncomfortable. Edward started speaking, unaware or either forgetting about Philip’s presence in the next room. He started, “Sarah Dear,  I know what I am about to ask might seem very unreasonable, but I want you to hear me out completely, think about it and take you time. I don’t know if it is the right time because I think there had never been a right time. I will just go ahead and tell you what’s there in my heart. Dear, would you please come with us to LA and be with us?” Suzie’s eyes twinkled, unaware of the fact what’s coming next. Her Grandma walked in, took her hand and walked her to the next room. Edward continued, “Please don’t think wrong of me. This is not an outrageous thought just came into my head. I had always liked you, from the time I cannot even remember.” Sarah froze and kept staring at him. “It is all my fault. I could never tell you about my feelings thinking that you would just reject me. And then that one night with Jane, everything changed. She got pregnant and I could not leave her. I could not leave my baby alone. I had to be with her for Suzie. When I met you in Lake Tahoe years ago, those feelings came rushing by. I just wanted to spend time with you and never leave you there. I also tried to reach you but couldn’t. I had left you a voice mail thinking you would contact me, but you never did.” His eyes were watery and his throat choked. He went down on his knees in front of her, holding her hands in his, he rested his head on her lap and let go off the dwelling tears, “Please forgive me Sarah. Please.”

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It was getting dark. They left in a hurry. Goodbye hugs and kisses were quick and Sarah came back upstairs where Philip was waiting for her. She came in and went running into his arms. She was holding him tight and uncontrollable stream of tears were rolling onto her cheeks. She was grateful to him for being so understanding, as right now she just wanted to keep her mind away from all that happened in her life in past few weeks. She closed her eyes, pushed herself on the couch, still holding him, she dozed off like a baby. She will worry about everything tomorrow, not today.

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Who will be Sarah’s choice? Philip or Edward? To find out don’t forget to read the next and the final chapter…

Coming soon (hopefully 😀 ) in the blog you have subscribed to 😉 he he

Author : S

Forgotten Love #Chapter 1

Some stories are well written, some are  just well read….

She could sense that the chaos of this ever breathing concrete jungle is driving her crazy. If she continues to scurry alongside this mess, she will lose it this time. Sarah stormed out of the hospital building, got into her car and started driving without knowing where to go. She just wanted away from everything, all the pain, tears, harassment, sadness. She took the highway which would take her out of the city.

Lot of thoughts flooded into her head as she took the road to Lake Tahoe. She didn’t even realize why and how she took that decision to go to the Tahoe City. It was 9:30 in the night when she reached there. She knew the hotel she wanted to stay in. She had always stayed there during her past visits. This was her favorite getaway but her busy life didn’t allow her to come here in past several years. Drive from Sacramento to Lake Tahoe and the painful day had exhausted her completely, she threw herself on the bed and slept.

Next morning, Sarah woke from her sleep by the knock on the door. It was room service with the tea. Sipping her tea she decided to go out to buy some clothes and other essentials. She got ready and left for the nearby shopping area. Breathing the fresh air and silence of the surroundings made her feel better. After shopping, she went to a nearby cafe to start with the book she had just purchased and a cup of coffee. She took a table outside and waited for her order while enjoying the beauty of the place. As she took the first sip, she saw a familiar face across the street. He smiled at her, waved and started crossing the street walking towards her. As he approached her, memories from her past flashed in front of her eyes. Edward, her childhood friend who was also her first love was standing in front of her. He hugged her and sat across her. “How have you been, Sarah? Haven’t seen you for so long? Did you forget your old friends?” She was speechless for a moment, but realized it soon and replied with a smile, “I am doing fine. I know, It’s been long. How are you?”

Edward had never known about Sarah’s feelings and was really happy to see his old friend. During the conversation, he told her that he is there for a conference and would love to meet her before leaving for Los Angeles. They decided to meet for dinner the same day. “I will pick you up at 7.” he said and left.

Sarah opened the door after listening to the knock and found Edward standing there. He still looked the same. Eyes full of passion, smile that brightens the room, face so calm and peaceful that would melt anyone’s heart. He had grown more handsome with years. They went to a small restaurant by the lake and spoke about their childhood days. They decided to go for a walk near the lake under the moonlit sky.

He held her hand and finally asked, “What’s wrong, Sarah? Is it okay if I ask? We know each other since childhood and I know there is something bothering you. I have never seen you this quiet.”

She shrugged, “It’s nothing, Edward.’  He said, “You know you can share anything with me. You might feel better.” and patted her hand. She had never been able to share her feelings with anyone, but Edward. She looked at him and smiled. “I am going through a rough patch in life. I know I will recover but right now I am not in the place I really love being.” She took a little pause and continued to pour her heart out. Her voice was trembling with pain, “I was in a relation with someone. Erick, he works with me in the same hospital. We were really happy together. Everything was going great until one day. I returned home after my shift and all his things were gone. He had left me a note accusing me of things I had not done. I tried to talk to him about it but he didn’t respond. We work together and so it becomes more difficult. It is heart breaking to see him there all the time. And now…” Her big blue eyes were filled with tears. She controlled them and continued, “he has started humiliating me in front of others. His taunts, meaningless words crushes me. I feel like a fool of being with that man for two years.” Edward wrapped his arms around her. She couldn’t control and big drops for tears rolled down her cheeks. She did not even realize when these words came out of her mouth, “It was very difficult for me to put an end to my feelings towards you. It took me years to get over you. I had never thought that I will have go through that ever again in my life. But my fete..” She suddenly stopped, realizing what she has done. He was still holding her, but there was an expression of disbelief on his face. Sarah freed herself from him and ran without looking back. Edward stood there looking at her as she vanished in the dark of the night.

It was late evening when she came out of her room next day. Still in shock and angry at herself for what she has done. She had lost her friend once in past, but now she was not ready to lose him again. She decided to tell him everything, that how she felt about him, since when she started seeing something more than just a friend in him, every single thing. Having all these thoughts, Sarah walked down the street towards Edward’s hotel.

Reaching the hotel, she saw Edward walking out towards his car which was waiting for him and she started walking fast to reach him. But her feet froze when she heard that voice. Yes, she was right, that was Jane coming out of the hotel calling his name. He looked back and smiled at her, taking her in his arms, he kissed her. A little girl around three years, came running and hugged them. Edward picked her up, gave a little kiss on her cheek and put her in the car seat. Doors were closed and without looking back Edward drove away.

Sarah looked at the car till it disappeared in the distance….

Who is Jane? Why didn’t Edward tell Sarah about her? Does he also have feelings for her?

Why did Erick broke up with Sarah?  How did her lost brain decide to come to Lake Tahoe?

To be continued in next chapter…

Author : S