When I was a child!

Bright blue sky with fluffy white clouds,

Little yellow daisies in the vast meadow,

I spent some time plucking daisies and then I lie down on the meadow with my hands folded under my head and I see the woolly round balls just moving around. I lie there looking at the sky, doing nothing, just spellbound by nature.

Surrounded by lush green mountains, that changes color from light green to dark green with shadows of wandering clouds,

Gushing sound of sparkling stream, so clean that you can see shiny pebbles in the bottom,

Butterflies dancing in the sweet breeze…

And I tip-toed across the stream  jumping very carefully from rock to rock collecting my favorite greens, daisies, pebbles and chasing the butterflies.

That was my childhood and I miss it… I wish this to be my future too.. ūüôā

– S

 

 

 

 

 

 

FORGOTTEN LOVE ¬†– Chapter 4 (The Last one! )

Here’s the last and the final chapter…

Love can be confusing. I wish it was that simple to know what one’s heart is really set at. Some believe in heart playing the role, Some believe that its just the trick of your mind. So is all this just an illusion? An illusion of being in love with someone when you are just looking for comfort, wanting your heart to be at peace. Wait.¬† That is what being in love feels like or I am just being illusive again. Confused? She was also confused.

It was dawn and she was sitting near the window looking at the sky trying to find the answers to her confusion. Her eyes were not at rest and so was her brain. Edward was the love of her life. She had always imagined what it would be like to know that he loves her too. She would dream of being in his arms and loving him and growing old with him. After all these years, she still thought if he came back to her, she would immediately throw herself in his arms and live the life she had dreams about. Then why was it taking her so long to make that decision that her heart always craved for?

In our imagination we can make our world a fairyland where everything is so easy, every decision is like a piece of cake, every life that touches us is magical but in reality when one has to conclude life’s most important questions it takes everything you have within. This is no more a story telling. This is about every person. This is about you and me. This is about all the people that encircle your life. Do you think after so much of life experiences it would be easy to decide whom you would want to spend your entire life with? No, its not easy. But sometimes or for some people, they just know. Yes, there are such people. They do exists, among us. Sarah also knew some of those people. She wondered how did they know, how it was so easy for them to decide, why it had to be so hard for her? She did not have those answers. People belonging to this side cannot understand this, they have to decide on their own. They have to dig deeper inside their heart to get those answers and she did the same.

“Soulmates?” she thought. “Are they for real? How could there be just one person to whom our soul would connect to? That just sounds impossible. We meet so many people in our lifetime, with some we connect, with some we don’t. We keep those people in the inner circle of our life. With some we are comfortable to share our everyday life’s experience, with some we share our office stories, with some our deep dive fears, with some we just like to spend time. There cannot be just one person with whom we can connect at all the levels in all the areas. Our lives have vast emotions, how can we expect one person to totally understand us in all those emotions? Edward was the one with whom I had that connect at that time. He was there, then but actually he wasn’t there, even at that time. He wasn’t there for me. I always felt this huge pull towards him. I thought it was love. I thought he is the one I wanted throughout my life. He was the one for me. But is that for real? Is he my Soulmate?”

“He could be my soulmate for that time of my life. My soulmate to keep me away from some thing more horrendous. To protect me from some other emotion that might have broken me for life. I felt like that for him at that time for some reason. May be, I was emotionally so weak to sustain this world on my own. So he was there,¬† not mine but there, to get me ready for the world. To be strong enough to withstand any kind of heart break. To move around independently without being dependent upon a certain life. May be my feelings for him were so strong and I was not ready to let go, so that I would not choose someone who was not for mine to be. To have this life’s journey to reach to my destination.”

“Life has guided me here to this one person who has been there for me from the time I met him.¬†He never thought of going away from me. He was with me in all that was good and bad in my life. And then life gave me a final blow on the face by throwing my past back at me. It seems to be cruel. Why did this have to happen? ” She just sat there thinking why would life take this turn and make it so hard for her.

“Yes” she almost shouted. “This had to happen. This was ought to happen. If this was not a part of life’s plan then I would never have known about my doubts about Edward. I never thought that I would have doubts about him. These questions are right. These questions are for real. My feelings for him were real but in my past and now they are not so much feelings than memories. Memories of being in love with someone. If it wasn’t true then it would not have been so difficult to imagine my life with him. It’s getting more and more difficult to think of my life with him.¬† I don’t think that he is my soulmate for the present. I don’t.”

Right then, she had her answer. She had been sitting here for hours going through her life and trying to get an answer for her questions. And she now knew she should be with someone who stood by her when her¬†past came rushing back leaving her in confusion, who was there at that time when she needed someone the most. She knew who was her soulmate and whom she should be with. Sarah smiled and picked up her phone to call the one for her…

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This is life for you! Never be disheartened when it does not go the way you thought it would because there is a reason for it. A reason for you to learn something more important, to experience something more beautiful, to meet someone more worthy of you… Enjoy life because this is it!

Love you all..

Author : S

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Burning Fire.

Aaaaaaaa to start with, this is not a story but rather an experience..

It’s been a cold day. Well, not as cold as mid-Jan freeze feeling but yup cold enough to keep my heater on and put on my cozy lil’ sock. I dragged myself out of bed in the middle of night to get some water. Poured a glass, kept it in microwave to warm a little (don’t wanna get an itchy throat) and wandered around in the living room till the beep goes on.

Passing my time, I looked through¬†the glass door of the patio and across the trees I could see the dark parking lot, church building, playground. Nothing unusual.. All so peaceful, serene. I was enjoying the quiet when the beep of microwave went on. And that very moment my eyes caught the attention of the fire. It was behind all the buildings. I panicked. I went outside on the patio and was stuck by this sudden cold breeze. I froze. Didn’t know what to do. You know those instances when you are just blank. This was one of that time for me.

I was looking at this one n half meter long stretch of fire, wondering what’s happening when I realized this is impossible. There is a lake just behind all the buildings. How is this even possible. Technically, nope. Or is it one of those pollution disaster. Nooooo.., not a chance… ¬†It must be something else.

AND then I saw it. I saw that monster. The monster that¬†did it all. A tall street light. Yes, that’s the thing that was making the illusion of burning fire on the water. Trust me, it looked exactly like yellow fire on the surface. Water was not stagnant due to the wind and due to street light, yellow colored radiance was reflecting from the surface of water which gave the impression of the blaze. Have you heard about those mirages in the desert, when light rays from sun produces an appearance¬†of image that looks like water on the sand from a distance. Like that.

Believe me guys, my head processed all this within seconds of seeing the fire illusion. That’s how our brain works. Analyzing. Reasoning. Wonderful gift of god. But yeah, today I was fooled by the street light and that’s my experience for the day. Take away – I love that little thing inside my head “Brain”. Still nature tricks us! So keep an open mind and enjoy it to the fullest. The calmness and the harshness, both comes hand in hand.

Until next time..! Ta Da.

Curious – What it is? or Who it is?

‚ÄúCuriosity is the very basis of education and if you tell me that curiosity killed the cat, I say only the cat died nobly.‚ÄĚ ‚ÄĒ ARNOLD EDINBOROUGH

While editing a post earlier today, I stumbled upon a webpage listing different types of knowledge lovers. My attention was caught. Game well played Sir knowledgelover. Read the entire article and analyzed which knowledge lover is my favorite. Curious, it is!

CURIOUS, one of a kind. A knowledge lover who truly understand the meaning of love. Bet me, if knowledge was a girl, she would definitely chose Curious over anyone. Inquisitive, he is. Wants to know everything. Will ask you dozen of questions. Suck in single drop of  information from you.

I have met quite a few o ’em & trust me, if they are your friends you will have an awesome time hanging out with them. They are interesting and are interested..

¬†My observation says that a Curious is actually not prying, but is trying to see life/event/person/… from another person’s eye… Trying to see your perspective, your take on life. Who knows in the process he/she is learning something beautiful every day!! Wink..